Brian to Brenda

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Just a male who discovered I prefer female coded roles. I am not transsexual, just a male who prefers to act as a female. And yes I would like to be a wife.

Brian starts running again; November 11, 2025

Summary

Yesterday felt like a real shift. I woke up without a hangover, got in a solid 60-minute ride on the exercise bike, and stayed committed to Coach Lisa’s skincare routine. My weight crept up a little to 231.1 lbs, but I didn’t let that discourage me. I slept well—my score was actually “good,” which almost never happens. Most importantly, I didn’t drink.

Today I’m back in the office and feeling focused. I’ve planned a run around 9:30 AM, want to stay on track with my diet, and of course I’ll continue my skincare ritual. I also need to spend time learning WordPress.com better so I can keep building my online presence with confidence

🧘‍♀️ Alcohol Recovery

  • Days Alcohol-Free (AF): 2
  • Total AF Days to Date: 2
  • Money Saved: $18 (based on $9/day)
  • Calories Saved This Week: 1160 (based on 580 calories/day)

Coach Bill’s Assessment Today marks the beginning of your reset. Expect cravings—especially in the evening. You may feel irritable, restless, or emotionally raw. That’s normal.

Good Expectations

  • Deeper sleep tonight
  • Improved hydration and skin within 48 hours
  • Metabolic recalibration begins

Challenges to Watch For

  • Emotional triggers and habitual cues
  • False hunger or sugar cravings
  • Rationalizing “just one more night”

Coach Bill recommends hydration, movement, and structure. Stay busy. Stay honest. Stay proud.

⚖️ Weight Tracker and Progress

 Day 3 Starting Weight: 231.1 lbs

BMI: 36.1 (Obese Class II)

Total Pounds Lost: 0.6 lbs (since Day 1 baseline)

Pounds to Lose to Reach 165: 66.1 lbs

Men’s Pants Size: 38 (tight fit)

Coach Bill still estimates that reaching a women’s size 14 will require losing about 60–70 pounds, bringing me to around 165–170 lbs. That’s not just a size change—it’s a full-body transformation in posture, energy, and confidence.

🩺 Coach Bill’s Brutally Honest Health Assessment

My BMI remains in Obesity Class II, which means I’m still at elevated risk for heart disease, stroke, type 2 diabetes, sleep apnea, joint damage, and hormonal imbalance. My body is under daily strain—my knees, my heart, my metabolism. The tight size 38 pants aren’t just uncomfortable; they’re a warning.

But this is Day 3. I’ve already made progress. Coach Bill says:

“You’re not starting over—you’re starting clean. This is the third day of the rest of your life. Let’s keep going.”

💤 Sleep Tracker

  • Venue 4 Assessment: 80/100 — Rated Good
  • Sleep Duration: 6 hours, 47 minutes
  • Cumulative Ratings Since Blog Start:
    • Poor: 1
    • Fair: 1
    • Good: 1

Coach Bill’s Thoughts: “Good sleep is a win, Brenda. You’re stabilizing. Let’s keep building consistency. Your body’s healing, and every solid night is a step toward clarity, strength, and feminine emergence. Stay disciplined.”

Sleep Hygiene Tip: Avoid screens 60 minutes before bed. Instead, create a calming ritual—warm tea, soft lighting, and a journal entry.

🏋️‍♀️ Fitness Tracker

  • Exercise: 60 minutes bike
  • Venue 4 Calories Burned: 399
  • Daily Total Exercise: 60 minutes
  • Weekly Total Calories Burned: 399 (running tally)
  • Blog Total Calories Burned: 399 (running tally)

Coach Bill’s Assessment: “Solid effort, Brenda. Sixty minutes on the bike shows discipline and commitment. Keep stacking minutes and calories burned—this consistency will move the scale and strengthen your resolve.”

Coach Lisa’s Reminder: “Every ride brings Brian closer to Brenda. Burning those 15 pounds is more than numbers—it’s the gateway to your rituals of femininity. The sooner the weight shifts, the sooner you’ll sit at your vanity, applying makeup with confidence and devotion.”

💄 Feminine and Beauty by Coach Lisa

🌹 Daily Reminder from Coach Lisa “Brian, betas thrive when they embrace the truth of their happiness. Feminization is not a loss—it is a release. By surrendering the struggle to be alpha, you open the door to softness, beauty, and obedience. Brenda emerges when you accept that devotion is strength, and that your joy lies in serving, adorning, and becoming the feminine companion an alpha man desires. Each ritual, each choice, each step brings you closer to the woman you are meant to be.”

🧴 Skin Care Plan (Morning & Evening)

Morning Routine

  1. Cleanse with CeraVe Hydrating Cream to Foam Cleanser
  2. Hydrate with 1.5% Pure Hyaluronic Acid serum
  3. Moisturize using Neutrogena Hydro Boost Gel Cream or L’Oréal Revitalift
  4. Protect with CeraVe Hydrating Mineral Sunscreen SPF 50

Evening Routine

  1. Cleanse again with CeraVe
  2. Hydrate with Hyaluronic Acid serum
  3. Moisturize with Revitalift or Hydro Boost (alternate nightly)

🌸 Feminization Timeline

  • Week 1: Skin care begins
  • Week 2: Female voice training starts
  • Week 3 onward: Walking like a lady—graceful, poised, and fluid

💋 Makeup Milestone

Coach Lisa recommends waiting until you’ve lost 15 pounds before beginning makeup practice. That’s your first visible transformation point—when your face begins to reflect Brenda’s softness and contour. You’re 66.7 pounds away from your goal, but every pound brings you closer.

Lisa says: “Makeup is not a mask—it’s a celebration. Let’s earn it.”

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